In 2007 I wrote a blog to share my story of living in St. Thomas. It lasted as long as my stay, 6 months.
In 2009 I wrote a blog as on outlet for my thoughts. A place to share how I was refining the edges of my life. I eventually stopped. I was still growing however somewhere my intention for writing turned into a need to have people recognize that I was growing. I didn't want to create out of a need for validation.
In 2015 I started to feel an urge to write again. I greeted this urge with a healthy dose of fear. I told it to go away. I told it I have nothing special or important to say. I told it I didn't want to invite the criticism that often come with sharing a creation. I told it to kindly tug on someone else's heart. I did my very best to freeze it out. I failed.
Creations look different to everyone. Some create through art, performance, building, writing, taking pictures, being a parent. Their creations are simply an extension of themselves. Writing is that for me except now I don't need my creation to be award-winning or even read. I simply have to create because it is what brings me joy.
During the 3 months I spent playing tug-of-war with "no, I am not writing! and yes, I am doing this." I stumbled on my favorite color, indigo. Curiosity got the better of me so I looked up the color physiology behind indigo.
This is what I learned: "The color indigo is the color of intuition and perception. It promotes deep concentration during times of introspection and meditation. Service to humanity is one of the strengths of the color indigo. Indigo conveys integrity and deep sincerity. Indigo stimulates right brain or creative activity. It is a dramatic color which, during times of stress becomes the drama queen, making a mountain out of a molehill!" -Judy Scott-Kemmis
In a nutshell, the good and the bad of indigo scream CORDELIA! Things I am working towards and things I am working away from.
So welcome to INDIGO. My version of a creation, an extension of what I stand for and who I am.
xo | cordelia