I’ve been feeling sensitive lately. I watched a war movie in the theater and the guns and violence hit all my nerves. I was watching a vampire and witches show and all my thoughts felt dark. I couldn’t talk about the Civil War with my family and I couldn’t hear video games from the next room. The violence, the disregard for humanity, the realization of how desensitized I felt, all hit me.
I have little tolerance for exclusivity and little tolerance for mistreatment. It is, of course, all based on my opinions of "proper treatment" and not really the point of what I am writing. The point is this: there is a lot of ugliness out there. Violence in the form of guns, sex, and power. Innocent people afraid to speak up, to tell their stories. Guilty people numb to their actions. Men hurting men, women hurting women, children hurting children, humans hurting the planet. It's all ugly, and it all makes me ache.
I don't know what to do about it, I don't know where to stand, or how loud to shout my opinions. I don't know the answers to fix what seems broken and sometimes that makes me feel defeated. Don't I need to know some of that to be a better advocate for people? What I do know is that in a world where no matter what direction I face, I see exclusivity and mistreatment, I have one job:
To cheer people on, to lend a supportive hand, to ask how I can help, to smile at strangers, to say go morning to the person walking by with their head down, to open my arms, to make eye contact, to listen, really listen, to comment on social media posts, to love people, and to DEMAND CONNECTION. Connection with everyone, the stranger in the grocery, the man in the tire place, the mom in the parking lot, the people I find easy and the ones I find difficult. Because connection is the uplifting, world changing tool I've got right now.
I've got the ability to connect.