The physical practice of yoga has given us an incredible amount of tools to use off the mat. This series shares those! I'd love to hear about your stories too! #comments
I'm jumping into this series today, even though this is typically Cord's arena. She's a yoga instructor, and trainer of yoga teachers, with a practice that I'm pretty sure is like 4-5 years strong. Today is day (not year), DAY 14 of my home practice, my first consistent focus on it in years. So, I feel a little out of my element, but here goes.
Grounding and Enough
The past few days, the focus has been on strengthening my muscles and stabilizing in my poses. My YouTube teacher has cued to drop my tail bone, feel all four corners of each of my feet press into the ground, and pull my sides towards the mid-line through the whole routine, starting in Mountain pose. She calls it grounding down through the back body.
As I've followed these instructions with my body, my mind has settled on this loose thought: My body can find balance just using the ground and gravity. I have all I need to do this work. This is enough.
As I repeat and become fixated on the idea, I start to believe it's true of my life as well. I have all I need. I'm enough. If the house is a mess and not decorated, or the to do list isn't complete, or I lose someone I love, or I let someone down...I am whole. I am enough. I have all I need to do this work.
Extending and Open
Yesterday, the focus expanded. In addition to strength and stability, I was cued in Butterfly pose to spread my knees wide and rotate my hip joints outward. I was directed to lift my sternum and drop my shoulders in an effort to open the heart. She continued to repeat ground down through the back body and open through the front body.
Again, as I followed the instructions, the I'm enough thought kept circling, and then I started following it with and I am open.
I think because in the moment I feel really peaceful about my circumstances, I also feel more open to whatever comes next, instead of afraid. Because nothing can take away from my wholeness or the truth that I am enough and have enough, I feel excited and available to the unknown.
Sometimes Is More Often Than Never
As soon as the video ends, and I go get water or pick up a book or grab a snack, those thoughts aren't as front-and-center I can get caught up again in feeling anxious, less-than, behind, stressed. It happens. Just like my muscles get sore and tight again, and I feel weak at times. I think what's refreshing for me, is that I have an alternative. If my muscles are sore and tight, or I feel weak, I can do some poses and breathing, loosen up and build some strength. If I'm feeling overwhelmed and unworthy, I can stand on the ground mindfully and remember it's still there. I'm still enough. I have all I need, and then feel open to the unknown again.
I'm not going to nail a consistent, robotic strength and feeling of worth every moment of every day. But it's nice to build strength for a few moments every day, and remember in those moments that I am enough, so I can be open. Some days have more of those moments than others, and every day there's opportunity for more of them.